Even fairy tales has bad endings...

13/12/05 ...


 'Cause when you´re thirteen and somebody told you that they love you, you´re gonna believe them...
And when you´re thirteen feeling like there´s nothing to figure out...
Well, count to ten, take it in, this is life before you know who you´re gonna be seventeen.

 And then you´re on your date and he´s got a car, and you feeling like flying... And you´re momma´s waiting up, and you think he´s the one... Then you´re dancing 'round your room when the night ends... 'Cause when you´re thirteen and somebody told you that they love you, you´re gonna believe them...

You really think he´s the one and he makes your head spin 'round... But in your life you´re gonna do things grater than that... But you don´t know it when you´re thirteen...
But all I wanted was to be wanted, wish I could go back and tell myself what I know now...

I was thirteen...

 Even fairy tales has bad endings...

...5/11/09



Too little too late...

You said the words but boy it don´t feel right.
What do ya spect me to say?

You take my hand... And you said you´ve change.
But boy you know your begging don´t fool me because to yo it´s just a game.

You know it´s too little too late.

So let me on down 'cause time has made me strong, and I´m starting to move on.

I´m gonna say this now... Your chance has come ang gone.

And you know, it´s just to little too late, a little to wrong and I can´t wait...

But you know all the right things to say.
You say you dream on my face, but you don´t like me, you just like the chase to be real. It doesn´t matter anyway...

It´s just too little too late...


I was young and in love... I gave you everything but it wasn´t enough.
And now you wanna comunicate...

Go find someone else, I´m letting you go...

I´m loving myself!

You´ve got a problem... But don´t come asking me for help. 'Cause you know... It´s just too little too late...

I can love with all my heart baby, I know I have so much to give... But with a player like you I don´t have a prayer...

That´s not way to live...

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Alone in this fight with myself...

I never slows down,
I don´t know why but I know that when I´m all alone feel like it´s all coming down...
I won´t turn around. The shadows are long and I fear if I cry that first tear, the tears will not stop raining down...

And there´s something saying to me: 

"Stand in the rain, stand your ground. 
Stand uo when it´s all crashing down...
You stand through the pain. You won´t drown...
And one day what´s lost can be found...
So stand in the rain."




I won´t make a sound...
Alone in this fight with myself and the fears whispering if I stand I´ll fall down...

I want to be found. The only way out is through everyting I´m runing from want to give up and lie down...

What I do know now is how I´ve changed my life for ever...




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BIG GIRLS DON´T CRY..

The smell of your skin lingers on me now...
I need some shelter of my own protection. To be with myself and center, clarity, peace, serenity...

I hope you know that this has nothing to do with you. It´s personal, myself and I we´ve got some straightering out to do.
And I´m gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket...
But I´ve got a move on with my life. It´s time to be a big girl now, and big girls don´t cry...

The paths I´m walking I nust go alone. I must take steps 'till I´m full grown...

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 Love´s like a rose... when you imagine it, becomes beautiful, sweetest, perfect...
Then you pretend to hold it on your hands with all your love and strength...
But it started to rain blood and you don´t know why... Well.. it´s your heart.. that is crying from skies...





It´s difficult to learn again how to breath, when all time you´ve been doing it by other´s lungs...


Courage, fight, strength... It will be done!